Placing trust and faith where is does not belong.

So its been an exciting week for me, God has been opening my eyes to a lot of mistakes that I have been making and has been helping me along getting to a place where I wont fall into those traps anymore. Also, Nick @ Night was amazing and I would really love nothing more than to just talk about that and have this be more of a warm and fuzzy post. However, I heard a really powerful message last night and it really hit home to me and I feel like its just too important of an issue to not address.

For a lot of us, or maybe just me who knows, we may find it really easy to intellectually understand what the bible is telling us and what the word really means for our lives. But we dont truly "get it" until were actually put face to face with the issue on an emotional level. For instance when God says to trust only in him, to put no others before him and things of that nature its very easy for me to rationalize and say that yes that does make sense and yes i do understand what that is telling me. But actually living life that way is a little differant than simply understanding the words.

For me my mentor just moved to Texas so ive been trying to figure out what my next step is, i decided that i needed to get another christian guy involved in my life and decided that i would start with an accountability partner (because if i could find a christian guy who is strong in the faith then he would keep me strong and on the straight and narrow and would make my life easy for me). So i thought about it and i met with a friend of mine who has been a christian since middle school and has been involved with church for most of his life blah blah blah, the kind of person that you just look to and go yes, they have it together and i can not wait to have my life be like that.

Well we got together and we started talking and it was amazing, this guy who i held on top of this high pedestal and who was supposed to give me the perfect advice and steer me in the right direction actually has a bigger problem with those issues that i struggle with than i do. In my mind i made him a stronger and more powerful person than i had any right to do. Something which is unfair to him for starters because it lays that certain burden of performance and expectation on him that is unjust and unfair but also unfair to God because i turned to somebody else to fix my problems and issues and didnt put my faith in him.

We place our faith in things that are not God entirely to often and it is something that we have to realize or else one day we will wake up and find ourselves miles away from God when really we thought we were walking right next to him.

If you want to get a good picture of this then read the story of the rich young ruler Mark 10:17-22. But i urge you to take your time and read this story slowly because ive read it many times but it wasnt until it was slowly broken down for me that I really could feel the message that is trying to be conveyed. Do not read it as some nugget of information to be found like in a text book, instead read it as a story told from the most wise, most kind, and most loving person that you know. If you can read this story like that then good job and you've made a huge step in your ability to grasp and see the Bible as the living word.

Now go to page one and read the whole Bible as you just read that story, I started last night and im on Genesis two, it will be hard and it will take a very long time. But i have faith that every second and every word that i am able to take in like that will be worth more to me than my bibles weight in Gold.